...its all good, it turns out that its not.
yea i know its been a while. i've been kinda focused and kinda preoccupied with my personal life to make time for blogging, but i could use the therapy. speaking of therapy -maybe the fact that i haven't hollered at emily in a while is the reason why i'm feeling so glum.
i kinda feel like venting, but at the same time, i don't know what to vent about. nothing is really wrong per say, it's just one of them days (thanks Monica). i just woke up on the wrong side of the bed.
i woke up at 7:30, courtesy of my phone alarm, to only walk out into rain. there is a big gray cloud and that annoying, spit-like rain that is burdening Philadelphia right now. And, its supposed to continue all weekend. i never realized how affected i am by the weather, but the weather today proved to be a HUGE boner shrinker. like, fo real (farewell, Seattle).
soo i came back to my room to then turn around and go to work to then stare at an excel spreadsheet, to then go get ignored by my spanish teacher, to then go back to work. so here's the deal with spanish: i haven't really been absent that much, but two of my absences happened to fall on the day of a quiz and the day of a test. i missed a test on monday. he reprimanded me yesterday and told me that he would have to speak to his supervisor about whether or not i could take a make-up.
patiently awaiting for the verdict is kinda killing me. i cant afford to fuck up my gpa and i feel like my freshman year, careless attitude is haunting me again. no thanks.
anyways, i have a ton of papers to do all of the sudden. and one of the papers is 20 pages and worth 80% of my grade. that's daunting.
im done venting. its not really helping, its just making me recall all the stuff i have to do.
that's the thing, i can do the work, i can time manage and i can excel, but i have NO motivation. like, none at all. maybe a smidge, but that's it. where did my motivation go?? it was here, but now i can't seem to find it. not a good look.
im just feeling down.
Mood : Morbid :-/
boo. lame. no me gusta. tomorrow is friday and 2 of my hs friends are coming to visit, so hopefully, tomorrow will be a better day.
as for now...i'm gonna try to get some work done.
i would much rather take a nap.
...i just might.