Ghost. My apologies.

December 4th? Really?! Damn.

So much has happened since then: christmas. saw the west coast fam. new years. last day at oliver. getting ready for school. getting back to school. reconnecting with old friends. apartment hunting with steph. enjoying pizza w/ the crew one last time. random 8:30pm trip to nyc cause i got homesick (already). got enthralled with The L Word all over again. enrolled in new classes. got a new roommate. pimmed out the new room. fell more in love with my mom everyday. gained a new appreciation for therapy. lost my wallet. re-pierced my industrial. gave steph a new tattoo idea. contemplating cutting my hair off. changed my major. fell in love with vanilla chai (again.) laughed. fought. cried? witnessed history in the making. GOT EMPLOYED. discovered new music. wrote a paper. randomly decided to go to miami for spring break. got organized.

so there's a quick rundown. so much is going on right now, but a more detailed update/thought/idea/opinion is (hopefully) in the near future. as for now, i got bored and i wanted to take one of those quiz things. the rule is only a one word answer (since i like to keep it short) so here goes...



1. Where is your cell phone? table

2. Your significant other? babycakes

3. Your hair? unraveling

5. Your mother? hero

6. Your favorite thing? love

7. Your dream last night? forgot

8. Your favorite drink? tea

9. Your dream/goal? change

10. The room you're in? 704

11. Your ex? gross

12. Your fear? failure

13. What do you want to be in 6 years? settled

14. where were you last night? campus

15. What you're not? unfriendly

16. Muffins? blueberry

17. One of your wish list items? microwave

18. Where you grew up? miami

19. The last thing you did? interview

20. What are you wearing? clothes

21. Your TV? n/a

22. Your pet? gone :(

23. Your computer? sally <3

24. Your life? demasiado

25. Your mood? optimistic

26. Missing someone? always

27. Your car? metrocard

28. Something you're not wearing? shoes

29.Favorite Store? vintage

30. Your summer? georgetown

31. Like someone? indeed

32. Your favorite color? pastels

33. When is the last time you laughed? morning

34. Last time you cried? dunno

Aww Papa

This morning was my usual routine - get up, shower, brush teeth, make coffee, and get dressed while watching re-runs of Fresh Prince. One of the commercials that came on was an ad campaign for the federal governments attempt at emphasizing the importance of fatherhood.

Since most of the non-exsistent fathers are black, of course a black guy is featured in the commercial, but quite frankly, its one of the cutest commercials I've seen thus far. It gets the point across while still maintaining a light-spirited attitude and I loved it.

It's commercials like these that make me wish I didn't fit the typical minority stereotype of only having a single parent. I used to get extremely depressed over it, but my mom is the best mom/dad/best friend I could ever have, so whatever.

Brava to whoever thought of this concept. Simply brilliant. Enjoy:

So yea. Long time no see.

12 whole days. Damn homie.

A lot has been going on. Work has started and is amazing, I made new friends and a new best friend who I LOVE. I love love and I love loving people so when amazing people come into my life, it makes me really happy.

Due to many hectic back-to-back events, I was completely awake from up from 2pm on Saturday until 3am this morning. Delirious doesn't even begin to describe the hot mess I was once the 24 hour mark hit. It was an experience nonetheless.

In other news...I'm diabetic. Lol. Soooo as a diabetic, my immune system is fairly shot and it takes me a while to heal once I get cuts or bruised or anything. Diabetics are known for having to get appendages removed like toes and fingers and shit. At diabetes camp, actually, we were required to wear socks everywhere in order to prevent stubbing toes. I don't know what happen, but I had this excruciating pain in my toe and it developed into this massively unattractive nastiness. I just came back to the doctor annnnd I' having surgery. FML! (FML = Fuck My Life)

So not only am I having surgery, but its early tomorrow morning, I'll be there by myself, leaving by myself via subway and I can't go to work for the rest of the week. FML again.

Speaking of FML, peep the funny/fucked up picture my new bestie sent me:


Damn. That hurts.

So the whole point of this blog was to reinvent. That's why I took a semester in the first place to get my shit together. I kinda sorta started started going to the gym and I realized I'm not as out of shape as I thought so yay. But I still have a lot of things to work on. This toe thing kinda got me shook and my mom is really scared for my health.

I think God is giving me a drop kick in the face and I need to shape up. I'm too young with too much going for me to have missing toes and shit.

ugh.

In Politics News (you know I can't resist) - My mom received this e-mail from a friend about how corrupt the McCain campaign continues to be. Please read:

"The story is all over Progressive Talk Radio today about the MCain campaign
sending absentee ballot applications to registered democrats or people that have
donated to Obama's campaign. These ballots are deliberately misleading and
have postage paid return addresses that are for an election clerk that is
outside of your city or town. What this will end up doing is either having
your vote not counted, or if you return one of these, they will cite you for
election fraud, saying that you already voted absentee.These ballots are only
being sent out in "purple states" and this is a big deal.. This is
called voter caging, and is a huge problem.

The McCain campaign is stealing this election as we speak. Please get this
information out to as many people as you can ,and tell anyone you know who has
received one of these ballots that they need to contact their city election
clerk or the supervisor of elections immediately. Also call the local media
and let them know what is going on.

The main stream media is never going to cover this so we have to depend on our
ground campaign to get the word out to our voters."

This world is going crazy. I'm scared for my children. I'm scared that this world might collapse during my lifetime. 2012? Yea. Times are crazy.



And here are a few words from The Mavericky Tina Fey about our lovely Sarah Palin:

"If she wins, I'm done. And by I'm done, I mean I'm leaving the earth." - Tina Fey

LMAO. Tell us how you really feel :)

God is Good

Things are starting to look up! I'm 90% sure I got the Pinkberry gig AND I heard back from this internship I applied for. Happy Happy, Joy Joy.

Tyra Show this Tuesday...I'm def writing a blog on that.

In Politics news, Obama and McCain rocked Columbia University last night and the cops were runnin NYC. They were everywhere and made driving down Broadway unnecessarily difficult. While watching E! News, they showed a clip of a Sarah Palin parody video and it looked hialrious. My mission to find the video on YouTube was successful and viola!

PS - Yay for the weekend!

Highlights:

• "I think global warming is PS, Polar bear Shit."
• "Sarah Palin. If she shoots you in the face, it's because she was aiming for it."
• "That's exactly the kind of decision making we need in the White House."
  

PPS - So I change my background music a lot. While talking to a friend last night, I realized that the only thing that makes m truly happy is music. I love music and I love different kinds of music.

Theres so much music in the world, that it actually upsets me that I haven't even heard 3% of it.

I want to be exposed to all types of rhythms and beats and lyrics, and I want to expose those around me as well. I think that being a DJ might possibly be my calling, but I'm going to try to graduate first.

With that said, enjoy the new song. :) This group (Skindred) is this heavy-metal/reggae band. They're one of my favorite rock bands, hands down. They're an English band, but they have a completely unique sound and this specific song, Pressure, is definitely my favorite song by them. For more info, visit skindred.com

Discipline

"Discipline is the bridge between goals and accomplishment"

I just had one of the most lovely convos with the abuela today. We talked about politics, jobs, the internet, penn, immigration...everything. It was awesome.

As annoying as she can be sometimes, today I was reminded why I love her as much as I do. I love her so much it hurts, she's just amazing. She is so open-minded, so willing to learn and explore, so happy, friendly, loving, funny and just so admirable. She didn't go to college and yet she is one of the most brilliant people I know. I love my grandma and I loved our convo.

Today has been fairly quiet. My mom, out of the goodness of her heart, agreed to drive a high school buddy of mine to college, so I've been home alone. Took a walk around the neighborhood, made some breakfast, and had riveting phone convos with people. First a friend from Penn, my ring sister, and my grandma. It was great.

After these many great chats, I've realized that life is really looking up right now. I really needed the re-affirmation that everything is going to be ok, and today I got just that.

I found the answer to my issues. Discipline. If I incorporate discipline into my life, everything will get tremendously better. Diabetes, work, school, health, relationships, life in general.

The 3 cm leash that I was on all throughout my high school career led to my none existent organization skills. I think I subconsciously felt a need to rebel against society, which ended up just fucking me over in the end. My sporadic behavior was juvenile and unnecessary and did nothing for me except for throw me off balance and leave me in sketchy situations.

DISCIPLINE IS THE KEY!

I'm attempting to turn over a NEW LEAF today and try my damndest to stick to a schedule. Waking up earlier, actually cooking a well-rounded breakfast, networking more, working more...DISCIPLINE.

I found the answer and I can't wait to get started.

Mormons, Heroine and Tyra

How did Coolio get a show about fatherhood? First Ozzy, then Hulk, then Rev Run, now this one. I guess new ideas are too much to ask...

Anyways-Not much today. But nothing sometimes is needed.

Woke up late, visited Oliver and saw Candy :), found out SHEREE GOT MARRIED!, made up with the mommy, got a job interview, decided to ride the subway in the midst of rush hour, caught up on the reality tv realm (i.e. I want To Work For Diddy, JDMA, I Love Money, True Life, etc.)...

Speaking of reality TV, I have a mildly odd obsession with Intervention. Intervention is this ground breaking documentary on A&E that explores life with addictions. Not superficial addictions like shopping or starbucks, addictions with drugs. Last night I was watching an episode that discussed addictions with Crystal Meth/Heroine and OCD.

The girl who had an addiction to meth and heroine is actually Mormon. I have 2 Mormon friends and Mormonism is a religion that I've definitely been trying to learn more about, since I don't get it at all, but that's why I found it interesting that she is Mormon.

Mormon's are super Christian, like model students for Sunday school.

Anyways, Mormons have a strong emphasis on family. For example, I was on princetonreview.com and BYU (a university that is run by Mormons and is in the Mormon capital, Utah) is ranked under: Alternative lifestyles not an alternative, don't inhale, future Rotarians and daughters of the American revolution, scotch and soda--hold the scotch, stone cold sober schools, most conservative, and most religious. The students also add: "Because of our religion, many students are very preoccupied with marriage and finding their special someone." Getting back to my point of their emphasis on family...

So because of this emphasis, there's a lot of pressure on the women. This Mormon woman that was featured on Intervention always wanted a husband and a family but she was diagnosed with a disease that basically ensured that she would never have children. Not only that, but when she received one of the holiest recognitions is the Mormon church, the priest informed her that she would have an extremely tumultuous future. That's why she became an addict. She felt like she had nothing to live for, so she might as well go out with some kind of pseudo relief.

Can't judge a book by its cover, huh?

Whenever I think of serious drug addicts (serious=not weed), I always have a negative connotation--like they are lazy, they have no ambitions, they are self loathers, and so on. But after seeing this episode, all my previous convictions have been altered, which is great. I really like this show. It can be extremely depressing and kind of nauseating (they show people shooting up and everything) so I do not recommend it for the weak stomachs, but its a really good insight into the life of addicts and if definitely makes me want to steer clear of the pipe.

On another note...

I got tickets to The Tyra Show...not a big fan of Tyra, at all, I actually think she's kinda obnoxious, but they were free and it should be an interesting experience. Don't know yet what the topic is going to be, but I hope Lupe ends up being a special guest. Doubt it. Highly unlikely, but fuck it, a girl can dream :)

I feel like some entertainment, so here's another hilarious video from our good friends at YouTube.com. Enjoy

Highlights:

• "You'll be so fast that mother nature will be like "Sloooooooww Doooooowwnnn" and you'll be like "FUCK YOU" and kick her in the face with your ENERGY LEGS
• 400 babies
  

RSN - I love watermelon.

Reinvention (n.)

Thank you, Miss Gideon, for putting me on to the 21st century.

As technologically savvy as I proclaim to be, that too is not the complete truth, or else I would have started this shit along time ago. Too often do people (myself included) have a falsified image of themselves, when in actuality, we are lamer than we think. Pessimistic, I am not. Realistic, perhaps. Optimistic, I declare. Once again, a falsified image. Vicious cycle that I am hoping to break.

In the spirit of reinvention, I am determined to make a conscience effort to reinvent. College was not such a good look this year, resulting in a decision to take a semester off. Not one to quit or to delay completion, this was a hard decision to reach, but I rarely do what is best for me and I finally decided to put my foot down. My priorities were skewed, my intentions were wrong, and social consumed academic, gearing me off the route that I planned to take when I got to college: getting a degree. Duh. Money, time, and precious brain cells were wasted and now I'm home trying to get my shit together.

Only have I now reached the point of realization. My friends are all in college right now, and I am here. Unemployed and bored. Not a good place to be. Was my decision a good one? I have yet to discover....

I can go on forever. I swear its a genetic trait. My family does not know the meaning of quiet or politically correct, and I am a quintessential product of my environment. That's why my mom always suggested a diary, so I can write down my thoughts and try to make them concise. Time passed, diaries were written in, but only one entry in each. Up-keep is not my thing.

However, keep in mind that I TRULY AM a product of my environment. Addicted to facebook? Yes. AIM? Yes. Video chat? Yes. Texting? Yes. I'm totally consumed by the current technological pop stars and I am proud of it. Staying true to that, blogging seemed like the perfect outlet. The use of technology and the 1st amendment? Sign me up!

And here I am.

Stay tuned...